I’m Back and I’m Better

It’s been almost a year since my last blog post and so much has happened that I can’t wait to share with you all! This past year has been one for the books! God has continued to bless me in so many ways despite my shortcomings and how unworthy I am. I have come to know His love, mercy and grace in such marvelous and great ways, Wow!!! He is so good and so real in my life and He can be in yours too if you let Him and believe!!!

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I am currently with a broken foot and on non-weight bearing and it has been the perfect opportunity for me to just refocus on the important things and reflect on everything.  I have been so busy with work and preoccupied with other things of life that I really haven’t had the chance to really do things that I love and are very important to me, one of them being writing and sharing what God has put in my heart. But that is all about to change and for the better.  I have been tired of living mechanically and I guess that having this broken foot has really made me more self-aware and thoughtful of ways to make things better without letting anything get in the way.

I have trust that God will lead me in every step of the way. I love how despite my broken foot being such an inconvenience, I have come to see the good in it, for me it has definitely been a blessing in disguise.

Well that is all for now folks…

Stay tune for more posts and updates on my broken foot and how I broke it! How in the world did I end up with a #JonesFracture???

 

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The BEST of ME

I am not the best daughter, the best friend, the best speaker, the best writer, the popular one, the one that everyone loves and adores. I have struggled because I have lived a life to be the best for people and have always failed because the best that they were expecting was not me at all but a glimpse of who they wanted to be. Therefore, when I did not fit to their paradigm of the best  or the best of who they wanted me to be, they rejected me and this left me feeling empty, confused and with no sense of value. Who they wanted me to be was not me, was not the best of who I was really meant to be. It was not until I turned to my creator, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that I began to feel a sense of purpose. For the living word of God says that,

For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.

He made me and created me for a purpose.  It was like scales being removed from my eyes and I could finally see that my purpose was not to fit the mold of people’s perception of the best of me but that I was created to live out my purpose and the best of me for Jesus Christ and him alone.  He is my GOD and has never abandoned me or rejected me when I have made mistakes and not fit into his expectations, instead he helps me, walks with me and teaches me to the best for HIM, the best he created me to be before I even existed.  It is not about me anymore but what I am through him who loved and cared for me when everyone else abandoned and rejected me for not being the best and fitting into their mold. He knows me more than anyone, before the foundations of the earth, he saw me. And after I rejected him and put him to the side and went my own way to fulfill my desire and fulfilling the desires of others, pleasing others to please myself through their acceptance to only then be rejected over and over. He still called me by my name and loved me so much. He let me know that HE died for my failures, my sin that was killing me so that I can be the best for him and through him.

God is perfect and he created me fearfully and wonderfully, in his image of perfection and until I reach there I will never be satisfied with less or fulfilling people’s expectations of what they think should be the best of me. At this time, right now, I may not be the best version of what God created me to be, but I hold on to this, that I know for sure is that I am headed there and just knowing that God is with me and will never leave me or forsake me on this journey to the best of what he created me to be gives me great delight.

Psalm 139: 13-16

You made my whole being;
    you formed me in my mother’s body.
 I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
    What you have done is wonderful.
    I know this very well.
 You saw my bones being formed
    as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me
    were written in your book
    before I was one day old.

Lord God I pray that your will be done in my life. That I may live a life for you and only you. To be the best of me through you who created me to be. Thank you Lord for your word, for your wisdom. Continue to strengthen me in Jesus name, Amen!!!