Broken Surrender Part II

 

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It hurts so much!! Why I am going through this problem? Why so much pain?  Hey there!!! Don’t be so surprised! Jesus did warn us and said that in this world we will have trouble, but then he also said to take heart that HE has overcome the world!!! (John 16:33) So just take heart!!!  Be courageous! Be confident in HIS victory in the midst of whatever you are going through!!!

I could have never imagined that through my brokenness  I can experience so much spiritual growth and victory over several areas in my life.  But how can brokenness, weakness, disability and pain propel us to a higher level of growth and victory that we could have never imagined reaching? The answer is faith!!! Do you really believe? That he has overcome the world. That he took upon our sin, our brokenness, our shame on the cross so that we may be found victorious in him when he resurrected on the third day? We need to have faith in him!!! He has done so much for us, and all we have to submit ourselves to Him and be confident and courageous in what he has already done for us. The word of God says that in our weakness, he is made strong in us!!! (Corinthians 12:9)  So the next time you find yourself in a weak state instead of being down and out, be glad and give it all to Jesus!!! He will give you the victory!!! Amen!!! Glory to God!!!

God has a plan for each and every one of us, a perfect plan according to his will and if he allowed something to happen is for a reason.  But is our choice whether to surrender to the brokenness and pain that this world gives us and let rule us in some way or to just surrender ourselves and what we are going through to our Lord Jesus Christ, who gives us peace and has overcome the world!!! We cannot give up faith in him no matter what and continue to trust that he will see us through no matter what!!! God is good, he loves us so much and wants nothing but the best for us.

Throughout my journey, I have lost faith. It happens, but I have learned that when I find myself there that I have to continue to seek the Lord, through prayer, his word, fasting and ask him to give me more faith.  This song “Give Me Faith” by Elevation Worship has really ministered to me in this area of my life and I hope and pray that it is a blessing to all in Jesus name!!!

Let’s pray together:
God just take control and let your Holy Spirit dwell among us as we come before you. You are familiar with all our ways and everything we go through each day, search us my God and if you find any wicked way in us, I ask that you correct us and teach us your ways. Lord, that we may please you and not the desires of our flesh. I pray that you may give us faith and that we may long for you instead of the worldly things. Lord I believe that you will fulfill your purpose for my life. I declare that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and that Satan is below my feet. I believe I have the victory in you because you already won!!! Through you I am a winner. I am no longer a slave to my sin and brokenness. I am wholly yours in Jesus name!!! Thank you Lord!!! Praise the Lord God Almighty!!!

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I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying

It’s official; I uploaded this video of me singing to social media (Facebook) for the first time in my life.  I know that it might not be a big deal but to me and those that know me very well know that this was not an easy thing for me to do.  I have always been shy and have struggled with self-worth and low self-esteem since a very young age. It was not until recently, that I have received new strength and courage from God to expand my borders in different ways and share with others what the Lord is doing in my life.

Attached to the video I wrote the following:

Sharing this part of my life with the public is new to me but late last night I could not sleep and I prayed to my Lord and He inspired this new song in my heart as He has before, I really hope it will be a blessing as it has blessed me and giving me motivation to not give up no matter the circumstances knowing that He is my Hope.

The following are the words to the song:

I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying

I’ve got nothing else to lose

I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying

Cuz my only inspiration is you

I will not give up, I will keep on trying

My only hope is in you

I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying

My only inspiration is you

I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying

My only inspiration is you

I need you now, I need you now, I need you now, I need now

My only hope is in you Lord

And my only inspiration is you.

The bible declares that those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength and they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint (Isaiah 40:31). Through this song the Lord reminded me that it doesn’t matter how many times I fail giving up is not an option.  That it’s okay not to have it all together, it’s okay to make mistakes, just don’t stay there long, and keep moving. He reminded me not to give up (no matter what!!) and instead to hope in him and in due time he will strengthen me. He also reminded me that he created me to be a overcomer and it does not matter what the circumstances look like because he is on my side and he is my hope (the feeling of wanting something to happen and thinking that it could happen: a feeling that something good will happen or be true) and my inspiration (something that makes someone want to do something or that gives someone an idea about what to do or create: a force or influence that inspires someone). The night that the Lord inspired this song in me, I was unable to sleep (it happens a lot) mostly because I tend to overthink most of the time (especially before bed of course) and sometimes I begin to feel depressed. Nevertheless, it was late and I was feeling down so I just cried out to the Lord in my need and I started saying the following words that became the song in the heart: “I will keep on moving, I will keep on trying.” From there I felt the Lord inspiring in me the tune and words that became the song.  I did not know the reason at the time why I recorded myself, it was totally out of my character but it really took a lot from me to listen to it and when I did, I felt uplifted and motivated instead of sad and blue. I could not believe that I was the girl singing so I listened to it over and over again.  I was really in awe, on how God can inspire me in such way so spontaneously. It was not until the following day, that I finally had the courage to upload it. I am so excited about what the Lord is doing and I will forever be thankful. I know that I was not able to do this on my own but it was him that breathe it and gave it life. I just pray that he continues to work in me and that his perfect will be perfected in my life. God is just so awesome!!! He deserves all the glory and the entire honor.

I don’t know what you are going through, I don’t know your story or what you are struggling with but I do know one that does and his name in Jesus Christ. Don’t give up, don’t give in, put your hope in GOD alone and you will see. I truly believe that if you cry out to him in faith, he will hear from you and answer you as the word of God says:

Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know (NIV)

I pray that the Lord may strengthen you and fill you with his peace. I pray that his Holy Spirit may hover over you at this moment. I pray that you may acknowledge that you are special to God and that he loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life.

Credits:

Merriam-Webster Dictionary, Bible (New International Version) and of course the Holy Spirit of God!!

 

 

 

The BEST of ME

I am not the best daughter, the best friend, the best speaker, the best writer, the popular one, the one that everyone loves and adores. I have struggled because I have lived a life to be the best for people and have always failed because the best that they were expecting was not me at all but a glimpse of who they wanted to be. Therefore, when I did not fit to their paradigm of the best  or the best of who they wanted me to be, they rejected me and this left me feeling empty, confused and with no sense of value. Who they wanted me to be was not me, was not the best of who I was really meant to be. It was not until I turned to my creator, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ that I began to feel a sense of purpose. For the living word of God says that,

For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.

He made me and created me for a purpose.  It was like scales being removed from my eyes and I could finally see that my purpose was not to fit the mold of people’s perception of the best of me but that I was created to live out my purpose and the best of me for Jesus Christ and him alone.  He is my GOD and has never abandoned me or rejected me when I have made mistakes and not fit into his expectations, instead he helps me, walks with me and teaches me to the best for HIM, the best he created me to be before I even existed.  It is not about me anymore but what I am through him who loved and cared for me when everyone else abandoned and rejected me for not being the best and fitting into their mold. He knows me more than anyone, before the foundations of the earth, he saw me. And after I rejected him and put him to the side and went my own way to fulfill my desire and fulfilling the desires of others, pleasing others to please myself through their acceptance to only then be rejected over and over. He still called me by my name and loved me so much. He let me know that HE died for my failures, my sin that was killing me so that I can be the best for him and through him.

God is perfect and he created me fearfully and wonderfully, in his image of perfection and until I reach there I will never be satisfied with less or fulfilling people’s expectations of what they think should be the best of me. At this time, right now, I may not be the best version of what God created me to be, but I hold on to this, that I know for sure is that I am headed there and just knowing that God is with me and will never leave me or forsake me on this journey to the best of what he created me to be gives me great delight.

Psalm 139: 13-16

You made my whole being;
    you formed me in my mother’s body.
 I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
    What you have done is wonderful.
    I know this very well.
 You saw my bones being formed
    as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me
    were written in your book
    before I was one day old.

Lord God I pray that your will be done in my life. That I may live a life for you and only you. To be the best of me through you who created me to be. Thank you Lord for your word, for your wisdom. Continue to strengthen me in Jesus name, Amen!!!