Broken Surrender Part II



It hurts so much!! Why I am going through this problem? Why so much pain?  Hey there!!! Don’t be so surprised! Jesus did warn us and said that in this world we will have trouble, but then he also said to take heart that HE has overcome the world!!! (John 16:33) So just take heart!!!  Be courageous! Be confident in HIS victory in the midst of whatever you are going through!!!

I could have never imagined that through my brokenness  I can experience so much spiritual growth and victory over several areas in my life.  But how can brokenness, weakness, disability and pain propel us to a higher level of growth and victory that we could have never imagined reaching? The answer is faith!!! Do you really believe? That he has overcome the world. That he took upon our sin, our brokenness, our shame on the cross so that we may be found victorious in him when he resurrected on the third day? We need to have faith in him!!! He has done so much for us, and all we have to submit ourselves to Him and be confident and courageous in what he has already done for us. The word of God says that in our weakness, he is made strong in us!!! (Corinthians 12:9)  So the next time you find yourself in a weak state instead of being down and out, be glad and give it all to Jesus!!! He will give you the victory!!! Amen!!! Glory to God!!!

God has a plan for each and every one of us, a perfect plan according to his will and if he allowed something to happen is for a reason.  But is our choice whether to surrender to the brokenness and pain that this world gives us and let rule us in some way or to just surrender ourselves and what we are going through to our Lord Jesus Christ, who gives us peace and has overcome the world!!! We cannot give up faith in him no matter what and continue to trust that he will see us through no matter what!!! God is good, he loves us so much and wants nothing but the best for us.

Throughout my journey, I have lost faith. It happens, but I have learned that when I find myself there that I have to continue to seek the Lord, through prayer, his word, fasting and ask him to give me more faith.  This song “Give Me Faith” by Elevation Worship has really ministered to me in this area of my life and I hope and pray that it is a blessing to all in Jesus name!!!

Let’s pray together:
God just take control and let your Holy Spirit dwell among us as we come before you. You are familiar with all our ways and everything we go through each day, search us my God and if you find any wicked way in us, I ask that you correct us and teach us your ways. Lord, that we may please you and not the desires of our flesh. I pray that you may give us faith and that we may long for you instead of the worldly things. Lord I believe that you will fulfill your purpose for my life. I declare that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and that Satan is below my feet. I believe I have the victory in you because you already won!!! Through you I am a winner. I am no longer a slave to my sin and brokenness. I am wholly yours in Jesus name!!! Thank you Lord!!! Praise the Lord God Almighty!!!

Broken Surrender


So as I mentioned in my previous post, I fractured my foot. It happened during worship at church on Pentecost Sunday to the song Spirit Break Out by Kim Walker Smith. I remember that while worshipping, I began to jump and clap because I felt the presence of God and when I landed, my foot twisted and that is how it happened. I did not feel that much pain at the time so I continued to worship as if it did not happen. I love being in God’s presence and even though I started to feel a little pain, I continued to praise and worship the Lord yearning that the Holy Spirit break out and break my walls down like the song says.

As the service continued, the message that was brought forth had to do with surrendering to the Holy Spirit and not getting comfortable because God does not want his people going backwards but forward into his purpose. As I sat in the service a little uncomfortable, because of the pain in my foot, the message really ministered to me personally. I understood that when we are afflicted it causes us to seek God more than when we are comfortable. And when we seek God our problems and momentary troubles at the feet of our Creator become like nothing compared to him and so does the cause for what we came to him for. Our affliction then becomes not about us but for a greater cause, which is of God. I realized that my afflictions and anything that life throws at me did not matter because God fulfilling his purpose is far greater than anything that I am going through. As long as I continue to yield to the presence of God, my affliction becomes nothing compared to the cause of God. And what is the cause of God?

The cause of God has to do with the people that surround us day by day, that are bound with no hope or future because of their sin. The people that do not know God and it’s our job as the people of God to show them through the outpouring of the Holy Spirit how great God is. But we become comfortable and we do not seek him like we need to be. God saves us, blesses us, he gives us new life in him and then we become complacent while the people around us are perishing and being devoured by the enemy.

It happens, complacency creeps in little by little and by the time you know it you don’t spend much time with God, seeking him, praying, reading his word and then you become astray from God and where he wants you to be. But then something uncomfortable happens and that is when you wonder where God is and because of your affliction you are moved to find him again and he is right there where you last left him. It does not have to be like that, God said his people will go from glory to glory, but is our job to remain in him and live a surrendered life. It’s not about you anymore and what you are going through, it is about God and his cause. Living for his cause and not our own because it does not matter what we are going through as it is nothing compared to his greatness. And when we are focused on him and fulfilling his cause, there is no doubt that he will also take care of us according to his perfect will. In order to see his glory manifested, we must be intentional in moving in faith and seeking him. Living the easy comfortable way of life is not going to get you there. We must pray without ceasing and seek him relentlessly not just when we are affliced.

This Jones Fracture has definitely been afflicting me but the more time I spend with God, the more he is taking me out of my comfort zone and into his calling for my life. I just can’t wait to see what God has in store. This is the longing of my being and my prayer:

God I yearn for your Holy Spirit to continue to break out in my life and break the walls that are serving as barriers as I surrender completely to you and allow the flow of your holy presence to take me far beyond my comfort level into your perfect will for my life. I long for you expand my borders and lead to places where I could have never imagine as the power of the Holy Spirit in me sets the captives free. In Jesus name, Amen!!!

Having a fractured foot for the first time in my life has not been easy but I thank God for allowing me to have this amazing experience and being able to share it with others. God is so good!! Praise to the Lord Jesus Christ!! I am not familiar with what might be afflicting you this day, but the Lord is and I am sure that if you come to him you will not be disappointed. God bless you and keep you!!!